With half my spendings outside, half inside I lay with throbbing prick,
which only came out when it had spent again. Camille vowed she had not
had a man for weeks, and took it out of me, perhaps fearing if I went
away with stiffening left, some other cunt would take it out. The
ballocking over I went home.
I was early there the next day; Louise had been installed in the little
room leading out of the sitting-room. Camille told me a great deal about
the distance she had gone, and the trouble and expense she had been put
to in getting the girl's relatives to let her come; she hoped I would
pay the additional expenses; and that I did at a cost of about twenty
pounds. What with that and paying for her journey, and for lodgings
while absent, Louise had cost me nearly ninety pounds already. Then I
undertook to pay for the additional room, in which a bed having been
put, an extra was charged; cooking now being done downstairs. Then
Louise must have a new gown; then Camille thought I ought to give her
something for herself, because whilst away for me she had made no money.
That I refused and blazed up about it; for all that agreed to pay for a
new silk dress for her, and a lot of little odds and ends on the second
day of Camille's return, for all of which outlays I had only had a peep
up the girl's petticoats.
Then I had a talk about her. The girl was the daughter of a small
grape-grower, a friend of Camille's; they thought Camille was in London
as a dressmaker, making a lot of money, because she sent money home to
her father. Camille offered to take her, saying she would be sure to get
on, if not in one way, then in another; that good-looking girls always
did well in London. The girl was mad to come, and persuaded her parents
to let her do so; believing that Camille got her living honestly; she
was to be her servant until she could be put in the way of doing well.
"What are you going to tell her now? what are you going to do with her?
what will she say when she finds out?" I asked.
Camille did not know. The girl would find out, and then she must excuse
herself as well as she could, would say it was better, and jollier, and
more money making than to make dresses. Besides, the girl could not help
herself, and would have to make the best of it.
When was I to have her? I asked. As soon as I could get her; there she
was, and I might try when and how I liked; help me more she could not,
she could not insist on Louise letting me; but no doubt she would in
time, no one else should have her.
I was not so sure of that. Camille was gay, and although I had for more
than a year excluded most men from the house, yet she did have other
men there, and I knew they would see the girl, might like her, might pay
Camille; all the remarks of the retired major came strongly before me,
and I thought I was going to be sold, and said so.
She replied that I was not; she would leave me with the girl when I
liked; if the girl spoke to her she would advise her to let me, but
would have nothing to do with influencing her beyond that; and when the
event came off, she meant to be out, so that Louise's friends could not
say anything. If she went gay it was no fault of hers, young women would
have it done to them, it was natural. That was the game she meant to
play.
I saw that I had paid her only for bringing a girl, and must take my
chance of getting into her; all she would do was to keep the coast
clear. I don't know what I really did expect Camille to do, but think
I imagined that she would have got the girl in bed with her some night,
let me get into bed with them, and helped to make her fuck, if she would
not. This was dissipated, I was to have the chance I should have had
with a servant in my mother's house, or less, for this girl I should not
see so often, and could not be sure she would be so well looked after.
So Camille went out, leaving me alone with the servant whenever I
wished. I expect she went with other men at houses of friends, and so
got her time paid for twice over, and made a good thing of it; perhaps
she thought, the longer this lasted the better it would be for her. I
think now that that was her game.
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