As I grew up I realized that I wont always get my way, when I was little that meant that I didn't get the toy I wanted but now it was I didn't get the support I needed. My mom told me that I'm not allowed to be depressed because I've gotten everything I could ever want when all I wanted was support, and told me I'm not as gay as I think when she doesn't know what it's like to be in my body and try to love a boy.
I've never gotten my way and I don't expect I will but with the things I control I could finally let something go my way and whatever that is I know that it's going to happen whether it is soon or later.
Mikey, Alex, and Leana were all over at my house for a sleepover. We watched movies until we couldn't keep our eyes open and talked about who we were dating. That night they encouraged me to finally ask Ara out again. I loved these friends and I couldn't wish for better.
I always felt that I could never truly understand Mikey. She was so kind but had been so broken I couldn't love her more than I already did to help find myself. Everything felt so crazy when me and Leana hung out. We were so similar and yet it felt like we would learn so many things about each other by hanging out and she was such a help. Alex was completely different and had a pretty good life if you didn't know her but learning about her family and how she could relate to things others couldn't was crazy. She helped so much. Some things couldn't go my way except having these friends.