*{Two months later}{Nicole POV}*
Time flies so fast living in this mansion. I woke up as early as usual and got ready to head for classes today. Yes classes, kaiden intervened about my studies and now, I'm preparing for college but first I have to go through private tutoring. I enjoy learning everyday. And also , I now know how to drive.... that's the most exciting part, driving is one of my best things now especially when kaiden praise me on my driving skills when we go out.
I greeted kaiden 'good morning' on my phone, since he is not home, he went out since two days ago on a business trip.
I went downstairs and after having my breakfast, I went to the car waiting for me and the driver opened the backdoor of the jeep for me and he sat at the driver seat, my day of learning was absolutely again the best. I spend my free time chatting with kaiden everyday. I thought I would never love anyone again but kaiden seem to pull a string in my little red heart.
After a few days later; kaiden's arrival, I was so happy seeing him again and am sure him too. I spent my time with him in his room talking to him and we both munching on snacks, I felt so happy being around my prince charming who is my best friend.
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*{ Two Days later / 9:32pm [Dec 6].*
Butler gabriel came to my room saying kaiden requested to see me, I wondered why he didn't just call my phone direct and in a night like this, how strange. Maybe it's something important, I thanked gabriel and left to kaiden's room.
Knocking on the door I heard his response to come in . I saw kaiden sitting on one of the single sofas in the room, I took slow steps towards him and ask.
" Good evening kaiden, you sent gabriel to call me ?" I started the conversation, I and kaiden haven't seen for the past two days reason being because kaiden has been really busy with office work since the Year is almost coming to an end.
" Yeah nicole, please sit" he said politely to me . I sat down on one of the sofas. " Uhmmm.... Nicole I would really like to talk to you about something really important to me, for the past few months since you started living with me...I couldn't help to gather feelings for you even though that was not my intention but every passing day I spend with you makes my feelings grow for you and I came to realize that I actually fell deeply in love with you, and it's fine if you don't feel the same towards me.....I just needed to get this out my chest before I do something stupid I would regret..... Nicole my feelings for you won't change anything between us.....I already said that we should be friends and nothing more and I will really try to keep my word" kaiden said to me looking me straight in my eyes.
I didn't expect this confession to come.
I really want to maintain the friendship between us , why does his confession feels hot on my heart which is now directly warning my chest up. _I love kaiden as a friend and nothing more_
"I'm sorry kaiden if I made you had feelings for me, I know it was your intention that we be only friends and nothing more, I really do take you as a genuine friend of mine" I said, geez I could feel my heart ache with those words that came out of my mouth.
{ *Kaiden POV}*
With the way I could see nicole stare at me after I confessed my feelings for her only made me to expect the answer she said to me.
I didn't realize I was slowly falling in love with this Dread locked snow lion. I know Nicole to be someone who is forcused and I didn't want to seem like I made an exchanged for my help and she will give me her love in return.
I blamed my self for not guarding my heart well but what's the point in guarding my heart when nicole is not a threat to it anyways. I laughed in my head to reduce the upcoming pain in my chest am feeling. _I couldn't take it anymore_
" Nicole can I kiss you" I said still staring straight into her black eyes. Nicole didn't answer but just gave a nod as an answer.
I guided her beautiful face with my fingers and lock lips with her, I dived into her mouth feeling her absolute sweetness, our toung collided with each other, the kiss was passionate and soft.
I know this isn't right but my head feels like it's gonna turn upside down anytime soon, I don't know the reason Nicole agreed to kiss me but I inwardly thank her for it anyways. If only I could vent my emotions with any other woman but the acient snow lion keeps rejecting all of them, he threatening that he would take over my conscience and give anyone I decide to lay my hands on in bed will have a benefiting death and I would then have to be the one to deal with that problem, and I don't want to kill anyone at all this year, the acient snow lion wants only just one person and she is the same nicole who just rejected me.
" Thank you Nicole" I whispered after we ended our kiss, she nodded as a reply .
" Are you fine now kaiden?" She asked our face still inches apart from each other. I nodded no as an answer, how can this feeling just go, I feel it's gonna be permanent in my heart. Before I could think again, Nicole rose up to huge me tightly and that feeling brought me inner happiness which i couldn't explain.
" Thank you so much Nicole for understanding my feelings" I said sincerely. At least even though I can't have her, I could still get to see her everyday and cherish our moments.
After a while, I had to send Nicole back to her room and wished her good night. After she left, I stood up after some time and went to the bar counter to drown my self with drinking.... My love for Nicole seems just to intensify , _how could I just remain friends with her_, I am drastically feeling hopeless at the moment.
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{ *Nicole POV}*
My heart aches for kaiden, he's just a nice guy and I didn't mean to have broken his heart by not having the same feelings. Sacrificing my first kiss for kaiden was the best way in my own understanding. Would kaiden get out from the feelings of love towards
me? I don't want kaiden to be hurt anytime he sees me, if I can't give him my love; I would only bring him more hurt to him when he sees me, and I don't want that to happen to kaiden.
{ *The Next Day}*
Kaiden left early to work today and didn't get to join me for breakfast, I'm sure he doesn't want to see me at the moment. Later that day, I saw he's text message stating ' _sorry I wasn't able to join you for breakfast, I had to attend a meeting early'_ . I replied with an okay, it seems my mind today wasn't in class. I decided that I was going to talk to him when I got back to the mansion.
I waited for kaiden in the living to come back home. When he finally showed up around in the evening, I didn't see his constant smile again, I just seem to have varnished away. I stood up from the couch to go greet him.
" Good evening kaiden" I said politely to him. Now I know that his smile is gone since he usually smiles back at me .
" Evening Nicole, how are you?" He asked rather in a dull tune.
" I'm fine, what about you? Are you fine?" I asked even though I could see the answer on his face.
"Not quite, but I'll try to get better soon" he said " let me go freshen up so that we can have dinner" kaiden said and left to his room.
I feel bad for what am going to tell him soon but it's the right thing to do so that it can relief his pain he is feeling.
When kaiden finally came down stairs, I was already at the dinning waiting. The maids came to serve us dinner and after then left to give us privacy. Kaiden ate his food in silence and it bothered me really much. I broke the silence by saying
" Kaiden it's going to be much better if you let me go, please, I'm really sad that I can't give you the same feelings you have for me, please let me go back and live with auntie Selena instead, the more you see me only just reminds you of the connection you wanted to share with me, you did so much for me and now I feel like I repayed you with hurt..... please kaiden, let me go..."..... I said the last words almost to a whisper. Kaiden only just stared at me with questioning eyes.
" No, I won't let you go nicole, you don't have an actual reason on leaving, the world out there is more devilish and wicked than you think so it's better you stay here" kaiden said not batting an eyelid for a moment.
" But kaiden I am going to be fine..... I'm sure I am gonna be fine under auntie Selena's care, I'm sure about that kaiden, please, nothing is going to happen to me " I said with pleading eyes which only received a frown from kaiden.
Kaiden stood up from his seat abruptedly and left the dinning table immediately. It seems that he doesn't want to hear any of my explanations. The kaiden I saw now wasn't the kaiden I knew beforehand.
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{ *Few Days later , kaiden's pov}*
Nicole isn't just getting the fact that the world out there is way too dangerous for a snow lion like her who haven't yet gotten her acient snow lion form for defense, she's still adamant on leaving even though i apologize for my reaction that evening at the dinning table....she refused to talk to me till I agreed to let her go, I'm already feeling stressed about the situation, why does she want to leave me so badly.... I know clearly that she can't return my feelings I feel for her but her just staying with me and I know she's safe and sound it's all I want.
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