The Founder's Week has ended, and just like that, everything around me goes back to where they're supposed to be. Except for me, I wasn't able to find my own orbit and I got lost.
[Friend Request Sent]
It seemed like I was wandering so aimlessly with an airhead only at hand. I must've been affected by the Bigbang; In order to create another universe one must end. Mine ended with Louise Statum.
You know what? I think Love is completely on another universe than our physical being; we completely coexist in both realms consciously. No matter what happens in that universe, it will never be the cause of any changes in my physical world. I won't let them collide. Maybe that's why I'm stuck in between.
I have no commitment, I have no resolve, I simply follows the flow of the universe if I want it and stop if I don't like it. I am the fourth wall.
It's like crying when you drop your ice cream, but I don't. I could simply buy another one. It's like grieving when you lose someone, but I don't. I would think of the future ahead and how I can move without another variable.
I'm that constant variable, I simply exist when everything around me changes.
*2 YearsLater
"What's going on with that two?"
"Oh them? I think they're 'On'"
"Woah, the captain and the cheer leader"
"Oh, right! Didn't you had a crush on that guy?"
Me? Do I like him? He shook my entire Empire with Louise Statum, He was the meteor who caused the extinction of my feelings, He was the beginnings afterwards...
"Not, really..." I said as I walk, leaving them behind.
He was after all... just an "event"
[Unfriend]
...
Thank you for letting me know you;
One time I saw this kitten ccrossing the four lane road. There was a heavy traffic and I hurriedly panicked inside, I couldn't move a muscle. But he ran and direct the traffic with his hand. The kitten was save and it was a relief.
When he gave his seat on a pregnant lady the moment he just sat.
When he got reprimanded at the school ground alone due to what his subordinates did; as a captain, under the heat of the sun, he endured.
When he held the National flag so stoickly. I find myself staring at him for 3 whole minutes.
When that one student who forgot his I.D. for being late. He let him off.
When he throw a garbage he found on his path.
I will tell you all but beyond this will be all nonsense little things that made my heart flutter because of him.
Why did I not confess? Why would I? I wasn't worthy enough. I wasn't ready for a relationship, I will never be ready for a relationship, cause I'm scared. So it doesn't matter if I like someone; I will continue to like him until the end even if he didn't know; even if no one knew; then, I'll moved on.
Some says, it's not love at all. They say that when you fall in love, "true love" you will never let that person go, they say that you will never be able to think twice with him, that you will never function the same without him.
Then, I guess I didn't know love at all.