Chapter 18: Smoke and Mirrors
The press room had that usual stale scent of old coffee and artificial calm.
Niels sat upright, suit crisp, hands folded on the table. The Crawley Town crest repeated behind him, flanked by sponsor logos that looked more hopeful than prestigious.
It was his first press conference as head coach. And the spotlight burned hotter than he expected.
A reporter from Sussex Sports leaned forward.
"Coach Marjan, congratulations. But let's address the obvious—Milan's departure was sudden. You're twenty-five. Some say this job came too soon. Do you feel ready?"
Niels nodded slightly, voice calm but firm.
"I don't take this responsibility lightly. I grew under Milan. Learned from him. But we aren't trying to replace anyone. We're building forward. With the same core, the same belief."
A few pens scribbled. One recorder blinked red.
A regional outlet jumped in. "Some fans worry that the club's rushing things. That you're too inexperienced. What do you say to them?"
"I say judge us by how we train. How we fight. Not by assumptions. We've already shown who we are on the pitch."
That hung in the air—defiant but measured.
A voice from the back, softer than the rest, cut through the chatter.
"You were once tipped as a future star. Then… you disappeared. Why come back to football now? And why here?"
Niels didn't answer right away. A flicker crossed his eyes—something between memory and pain.
He met the reporter's gaze, steady.
"Because football never stopped mattering to me," he said quietly. "And Crawley… it feels like something worth believing in again."
There was a pause—brief, but full.
Before anyone could follow up, the press officer stepped in.
"That's all for today."
Niels rose, nodding politely to the room, and walked out.
As he moved through the corridor, the hum of the press faded behind him. His phone buzzed in his pocket.
Wallace:"You did well, but they'll come again. Stronger next time."
Niels exhaled slowly, the message sinking in. The job had only just begun, but already the weight of it pressed against his chest.
Training the next day looked normal—on the surface. But underneath the drills and claps, Niels could feel it.
Energy was flat. Movements just half a beat off. Luka, usually sharp, miscontrolled a simple pass and snapped at himself. McCulloch was quieter than usual, barking fewer orders, letting things slide. Even Simons, their steady anchor, looked hesitant as he guided positioning.
Niels flipped open the system.
[Luka – Focus: Low. Emotionally unsettled.][McCulloch – Confidence drop. Feels uncertain about new leadership.]
He called Luka over after the last sprint. The midfielder wiped sweat from his brow, chest still heaving.
"You alright?" Niels asked, tone calm.
Luka nodded quickly. "Yeah. Just tired."
Niels gave him a look. Said nothing.
Finally, Luka sighed. "It's not just me, you know. People feel… off."
"Why?"
A beat of silence. Then Luka muttered, "Pressure. Noise. And maybe… not everyone's convinced."
Niels frowned. "Convinced of what?"
Luka hesitated, then said it.
"Of you. I mean… back then, people believed because Milan believed. He was like a pillar. Even if you were the one making calls, they leaned on his presence. Now he's gone, and…"
He trailed off.
"Now they're unsure," Niels finished for him.
Luka nodded slowly. "It's not that they don't trust you. It's that they're afraid. We've never done this without Milan before."
Niels looked out over the pitch.
"I get it," he said quietly. "But belief has to come from within the team now. Not from someone standing behind it."
He clapped Luka gently on the shoulder.
"Thanks for telling me."
That afternoon, Wallace caught Niels just as he stepped out of the club offices.
"You know a guy named Marcus Quinn?"
Niels blinked. "No. Why?"
"He was here. Claimed he knew Joel. Asked about his 'contract situation.' Said he had a project lined up—some overseas trial or youth program. Didn't feel right."
"Agent?"
"Maybe. But it was too smooth—too polished. Didn't feel like someone just dropping by casually."
Niels felt his jaw tense. "Did Joel speak to him?"
"Didn't get the chance. I sent him packing. But someone's sniffing. And it's not just him. Couple of calls came in from journos outside Sussex."
Niels exhaled slowly.
"They're watching us now."
"Exactly. You win one big cup match, change the lineup, upset the balance? Buzz builds. Then Milan steps down and you step up—now everyone wants to know who the hell Crawley Town think they are."
Niels said nothing for a while. Then:
"Let them watch."
Wallace smirked. "I'll hold the doors. You hold the squad."
That night, rain tapped softly against the windows of Niels' flat. A muted chill sat in the corners.
He sat alone, laptop open, frame paused mid-match. Joel's disguised through ball glowed on the screen—still brilliant. Still underappreciated. But even Joel hadn't smiled after the assist. No fist pump. No grin. Just calm. Like he wasn't ready to trust what he felt.
Niels leaned back, rubbing his temples.
His phone buzzed—Milan's name flashed.
"Pressure reveals. Don't let it shape you—let it show you what's real."
He stared at the message.
Then scribbled a line into his notebook:
"Not everyone will believe. That's okay. I just need the right ones to."
Outside, the rain kept falling. But inside, something quiet began to settle.
Not confidence. Not yet.
But resolve.
The road ahead wasn't about proving doubters wrong.
It was about proving the believers right.