Sometimes you can't be who you want to be and sometimes you can't do what you want to do.

That is the daily life of our anti-heroine. She is over powered with innate and learned magics and abilities but she does not have them to use them. she has them because she was born with them and she learns quickly. 

for her it is about acquisition not utilization. She wants to have power to understand power but she doesn't want to serve and protect. 

but it is out of her hands because she is Rachel, the Milana of Trannisa realm. her purpose is to maintain a balance dictated by the realm.

she is there when she has to be and when she is not needed she is off learning new things. 

so what happens when she is suddenly needed all the time? will her habit of avoidance become a mask of doubt and insecurity. 

so will she be a flawed being and pass the torch or will she endure in self doubt and constant insecurity. 

or is there a third option that has been there all along and completely out of her control?

There was horror in the eyes of Suzan's siblings. Her oldest brother stood to say something but his father waved him down. He slowly sat down, confusion and anger flowing across his face.


Her parents turned back to her and smiled at her. Her mother spoke first.


"There is something that we should have told you many years ago but I was too scared. Your father was always ready for you to know and he felt it was vitally important for you to know."


"But I was selfish and he waited for me."


Her father continued when it was clear that her mother could not. 


"forgive your mother. We love you so much and she felt that if you knew the truth you would not love us anymore or, at the very least, you wouldn't love us the same."


Suzan's heart tightened and twisted at the same time. She innately knew what her father was about to say.


Chapter 273 - hope