After I muster up my courage and talk to Hina... My daily life in school have been change alot ever since. I've been talking to Hina a lot lately whenever we meet in the school library or at the hallway.
I have finally made a friend after the isolation for over 3 years... no interactions.... I feel like the old times once again...
FRIENDS?
Is this what you all called? Friends?
The past is forgotten in my mind ──────────
I always consider myself a weak person, I always forgets about people bad intentions and I always let it go. I didn't want to remember the past anymore.
It's really hurt to trust people now.
"Hey, do you guys heard about it? about.."
"Yeah I can't believe he did it again."
"Tch... Now he goes for another girl now"
Rumors was spread like wildfire.... Why would I came out of nowhere just to hit a girl?
"Kazama latest victim is…"
"Suzuki Hina"
I was eavesdropping their conversations….
But ───────
I have no power nor strength to prevent the rumors keep spreading.. Me and Hina situation is getting worse by days…
I decide to isolate myself to prevent any more rumors or getting more worst then before. Not going to school library anymore…
We met at the hallway
Walk past Hina without making any eye contact….
"Kaz-" She turn back and look at me. Then she sigh and proceed to leave with her friends.
I admit. I really miss how things use to be.. But i can also admit that I've accepted the fact that things have changed. But sometimes the only person you can count on is yourself.
Loneliness is dangerous. It's addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don't wanna deal with people.
I'm addicted to it...
I have to learn to be alone, not everyone will stay till the end.
Me and Hina friendship have collapse as my...
First love...
OVER.
I'm back being a loner just standing in the background. Being just a ghost of the past and no one will ever notice me. I don't care if no one likes me. I wasn't created in this world to entertain everyone.
So it's come to this. Let the people of the world say what they may say. Only I know what I've done. And I will leave no regrets.