I heard hastened footsteps behind me as I hurried down the lane. It was dark and cold and I had not yet recovered from the fever I had this morning. Then, i was pulled and realized it was Clark, my husband.
I let out a sigh of relief as I thought I was being pursued by some robbers.
"Honey, sorry I didn't know it was you". I said placing my palm on his hand which held my arm tightly but he didn't let go. I looked up at him and saw an expression I had never seen on his face before, or had I never paid attention to it.
"Just shut up Alicia, you're really perfect in your role, huh? Moving around making people think you're the perfect lamb, but don't think I'd ever forget what happened on our wedding night..."he said looking at me like I was the worst creature on earth. He knew that was a fragile topic to me and I thought he believed me when I said it wasn't my fault but seems like he didn't.
"You even went as far as hurting Anna, to stop her from her from telling me the truth, but you know what, she did, and I think you are a monster for doing what you did to her", he continued.
"but I didn't do anything to her" I tried justifying myself but he pushed me hard on the ground. I loved him with everything in me and I had never believed he would hurt me one day. I started sobbing, but he slapped me and pulled my hair, so I'd face him.
"You know what, you look even more horrible when you start your fake crying" he said in a mocking tone. "It's okay Clark" I heard Anna, my sister say. Was she here all this while?
"I belief she needs to die for I am tired of watching my sister going the wrong way, believe me I have tried everything possible but see, she isn't even ready to admit her faults. I feel bad for not being able to fulfill my parents wish, and for our baby's safety,..." she continued, but i couldn't hear anymore,
"You're pregnant for him" I screamed in shock and she nodded innocently. "Clark and I found out our feelings for each other after what you did to him ,but we couldn't be together because of you" she said it like it was something normal.
I couldn't believe I had believed all my life that I was born to be Clark's better half, his soulmate and that I had to do everything to make him happy, but seems like everything had changed the night of our wedding when I was raped. That was the most traumatizing experience in my life and I had always wondered why no one cared to look into it. Not even Clark nor my parents.
Now I see why, they just never wanted me from the start, I was like the biggest problem in their lives and I can't believe I just realizing that.
I laughed.
I couldn't believe I had been so stupid to think that I deserved any love from anyone, I felt special thinking I had a family that loved me. But seems like I was blind all this while.
I didn't deserve love, I couldn't even have kids in all my seven years of marriage.
I wish I would have known, I wish I would have set a better goal, I wish I could start back, but it's not possible, is it? I would die here anyways, but if I were to keep living, I would never make the same mistake, I would never give anyone the chance to hurt me again.
"goodbye sister", I heard Anna say before she pulled the trigger and I felt the bullet burst right through my chest. I wish you all a miserable life. Was all I thought before everything went blank and I lost consciousness.