This year has been full of ups and downs. People who were closest to me turned their backs on me. Tristan and I are talking again, Ethan has helped me through the best and worst time.
I've bettered myself and did things I can finally be proud of. I've met amazing people who want to stay by my side. My only fear at this point is them leaving me. The year is almost over and I'm terrified. This year has been so complicated and so much fun at times. I met Aden and thought maybe I could be happy. He left me and now I feel like I have nothing to live for. I think I'm in love but it's gone before it even begins.
Holidays in 4 weeks and next year is in 10. Am I ready to grow up, am I ready for life beyond high school? This year made me wonder how hard things could be as I get older but I always remember what mom used to tell me, "when you hit rock bottom there's only one way to go, and that's up"